Funny, just the other day I was thinking that saying is so weird. I get that you're supposed to take each day as a new day and make it the first day of a new life but, as a procrastinator, I can make tomorrow the first day ...
I'm still not sure how I feel about yesterday. It's almost foggy, like maybe I was watching a movie and just feel really bad for the star. But I know it's my diagnosis, I know it's my actions that will make or break me. I'm not going to lie and say I am perfectly fine and will make all the necessary changes to make myself healthy. Yes, I want to change everything that is bad about my lifestyle but I don't want to give up the yummy. I know: stupid, selfish, dumb ... I am a little hurt by how Dan is handling this. He is making into a joke and it's not funny. Maybe that is his coping mechanism but it's not mine and I don't appreciate being made fun of because I can't figure out how to prick my finger :(
This morning was the first home glucose test. I guess my insurance covers the test strips but not the device and lancers. This sure is going to get pricey! My fasting blood sugar this morning - 176. Better than two weeks ago but still pretty damn high. Dan's - 87. Asshole.
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