Time to break the cycle

So yeah, I haven't done anything that I said I would in my last post - BIG SURPRISE NOT

Tomorrow is the beginning of a new month so I am making it the beginning of my new adventure.  I've signed up to participate in The Color Run - which is a 5K (3.1 miles) where peeps are throwing colored shit at you every kilometer.  Fun, right? Sounds like it could be.  Problem? I don't run.  I don't even jog.  Unless I'm late for the connecting flight.  So I signed up and my goal is to run it but if I am not up to that point, I'll walk it and be proud.

I downloaded a couple Couch to 5k apps in hopes I can "train" in the next ll weeks.  My fat ass can use the exercise and it should be motivating in some sorts.

Speaking of fat ass ... Pretty sure I'm back up to my heaviest, the day I gave birth - 307 =O  Oh I have tons of excuses (I'm tired, not enough time, blah blah) but in reality, I've just not given a damn.  About anything.  Except my son.  And now I'm giving a damn about myself.  I realized that I need to make myself the priority, otherwise I won't be around for E and well, I just can't handle the thought of someone else raising him.  Bad enough he spends half of his days at daycare ...

So, with tomorrow will bring some sort of accountability.  I'd like it to be daily but honestly, I get bored too easily these days so I'll probably fail at that.  I'm aiming for weekly.  Or every few days.  But I don't want to go beyond a 7 day period of reporting in.

I'm going to change the way I eat and exercise and hopefully, in the end, break the cycle of wanting to do something but no doing a damn thing.