Ten Weeks

My baby boy is ten weeks old day!  I can't believe how quickly time has passed, it honestly feels like we just brought him home.  So much has happened in our lives that I almost feel ripped off of the time I have one-on-one with him.  I am NOT looking forward to returning to work in three weeks :(

Two months of E:
1. He smiles on his own, at anything and everything and it's BEAUTIFUL.
2. He talks so much that I feel I should be holding meaningful one-sided conversations with him, LOL  He's constantly ooing and cooing and the newest thing is a semi-grunt.
3. Oh the faces! He is so his father's son!!!  I love the smiles, the frowns, the raised eyebrow and the wrinkled forehead.  Funny to serious in no time flat.  Such a personality!
4. Such a strong man on my hands - he can almost hold himself up during tummy time but I think we're both a bit lazy with doing it daily.  He bobbles his head but for the most part, he's very alert and very strong with his legs, hands and neck.
5. Sleeping - well he used to be on a great schedule and I'm not sure what ruined it but I've been lucky to get some stretches of 5 hours or more.  In fact, last night he slept from 9:40 until 5:20 this morning WOO  Of course I probably slept like shit because he was on me the entire time - yeah so what?!?! - but there is nothing more that I love than snuggles in the morning with him.  :)

Monday, we had his two month check up and his first round of shots.  E handled the entire visit great!  Our little shrimp is now 9 pounds 10 ounces and 22 inches long - he's still at the low end of the scale but healthy!!  He had some discomfort when the nurse poked him and he did cry but it wasn't anything like when they snipped his peter. ;0  My job was to hold his arms but I couldn't restrain him, that's not in me to hold him down.  Instead I put my face next to his and rubbed his head while holding his hands.  He looked up at me with those beautiful eyes and they were so sad :(  He did end up having some tears squeeze out and that's when I nearly lost it.  I was strong and brave for him but my goodness did that eat me up.  We got him dressed and into his car seat and you'd never know he just got four shots in his thighs, he was all smiles and coos!  But alas, a few hours later he had heart-wrenching cries of pains.  Thankfully we don't go through that again for at least two months! 

Last weekend we took him for his first major road trip, our first family vacation, up north to see my sister J.  E is quite the traveling buddy!  He sleeps through anything and basically anytime he's in his seat.  The drive was long but that's only because we stopped to feed him, get him out of the seat for a while.  He never was fussy!!  We had a great time but of course he's too little to really experience anything so I'm planning our return trip in a few months.

Life with E is everything and nothing I imagined!  The love that consumes me is frightening at times.  I look at him, peaceful in my arms or asleep, and I cry.  Tears of happiness for my dreams are coming true; tears of sadness because of the world we are bringing him into.  In the last month, there have been two deaths close to me and while it's the circle of life, some lives are cut way too short.  Then there are the stories about kids who are kidnapped and luckily found alive decades later.  It makes me afraid of letting him out of my side.  I don't want to be that paranoid mother, constantly hovering over him.  I'm actually not that bad right now.  I'm still not ready to leave him with anyone except D but I'm sure that's normal, right?!?!

This weekend is Mother's Day and a bittersweet day it will be.  We will be celebrating my first with my grandmother and stepmother, while D will be missing his mom.  I can only hope and pray that E will love me as much as D loves his mom.  <3